Day 78

This weekend I went to a conference called One Thing. It is put on by International House of Prayer in Kansas City MO. IHOP-KC (prayer, not pancakes!) is a group of people who are praying night and day. They have had a contintual meeting with people coming in and out of the prayer room since September of 1999. They just recently had their 10 year anniversary. I have some issues with their theology, but I have issues with my own church's theology and I pretty much have issues with anyone's theology. But I can also filter what I believe is truth because I have a *personal* relationship with Jesus. Anyway, this One Thing conference is based on Psalm 27:4 that says "The one thing I ask of the LORD-- the thing I seek most-- is to live in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, delighting in the LORD's perfections and meditating in his Temple."

During tonight's session I had another one of those experiences I can't explain. I am a changed woman. I don't even know what has changed yet. The Holy Spirit came to me in a power I haven't felt in my life. It was like He walked in the room, came up to me and shocked me with some crazy electricity. Every few seconds I jerked, shaking my head or bending over, unable to stand up straight.

And that's where people say, "Good to know Nikki's crazy." Yeah, probably. So this explanation is for the people who have not experienced that. It's like taking a dirty rug and shaking the dust off. Jesus wants me so badly and He was just waiting for me to say, "Take away what is holding me back from You." So He did. Again, I don't even know at this point what was taken away. But that's the amazing part. When someone tells you to stop thinking about a pink elephant, you're gonna think of a pink elephant. If someone sneaks that pink elephant out of the room without you knowing it, it's gonna take you a while to realize it's gone if you're focused on your best friend.

So that takes me to issues about allowing emotions and experiences to lead you. Bad idea. But so many times we focus on that radical experience rather than the Being who brought you the experience. If you walk out of an experience like that and you go back to the same old crap, nothing really happened. You just fell over, shook a bunch, looked like a fool and for nothing. If you are radically changed then you just fell over, shook a bunch and looked like a fool for Jesus. He has the power to change His people. All people. He has the power to take a closed mind and blow it wide open. He has the power to transform a hurt deep down inside that no one knows. He has the power to heal eyesight and disease and destruction.

If you just read that and something tightened inside you, GOOD! That's Him, Jesus, lover of your soul, working inside of you, the part no one can ever see with their eyes. I want to pray for you if that's you. Message me. Please. No one who experiences the power of the Holy Spirit can walk away unchanged.