Today I weighed myself. I have lost 6 pounds so far! I have never been so stoked to lose that little cause I've lost a lot more weight in this amount of time with other diets and exercise but after I see the good results I slow down usually. Now, I'm starting strong and ending strong. That's the plan anyway!
Every time I call it a diet, I hesitate. I hate what connotation it brings. But someone told me to look up the greek origin of the word. The greek origin is daiata (I think) and it means "way of life." I will now proudly call it a diet! And it encompasses every part of this journey, mind, body, spirit.
I tend to ramble if I write while watching a movie, which is what I'm doing right now. State of Play. Hello Russell Crowe....anyway...
Today I was playing with silly putty while tutoring one of my little kiddos and I hit a metaphor. When you work hard at molding silly putty, it gets harder the harder and faster you work at it. When you relax and slow down the silly putty just melts. It may not turn out the way you want it to and it doesn't stay the way you want it to but it's all about losing control. Life with Jesus is like that. The harder you strive the harder life is. You never actually get anywhere and if you do it takes forever and isn't worth it once you get there. But if you lose control, allow God to mold you in the way He wants to, it'll be messy, it won't turn out the way you want it to, it'll take longer but when you get there, it's all worth it. Then you start melting again and let God form you even more.
I feel like I'm at that point. I strived for six months to be what I thought I needed to be. I ended up depressed and unhealthy. So I let go. The funny thing is, I'm doing more than I ever did in my life. I've cut out gluten, wheat, sugar and dairy. A year ago, that was unheard of for me! I'm consistently writing a blog detailing my experiences. Usually I start something without finishing. Right now, life is just flowing. I'm allowing God to mold me in the way He wants me and will "arrive" at something and then God will say "good job, let's keep going" and do it again. Mold me Jesus :)
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